KADA

quarantine

2008-12-23T19:45:00.000+08:00

amp.

what a freaky movie. grubeh. homaygawd.

sakit sa ulo. freakeeeeeeesh. waaaaah.

watch it. don't watch it.

*shivers*

don't move. i'll shout. really. shhh.

Poner Fin

2008-12-07T21:14:00.000+08:00

now. im all alone.

Professional Fee Your Ass.

2008-11-19T18:42:00.000+08:00

Hiyang-hiya talaga ako nang biglang bumulantang sa harap ko ang bagong Chikka Minute ng sambayanan... "HUMIHINGI SIYA NG PROFESSIONAL FEE KASI FREELANCE NA DAW SIYA." Freelance my face, mas maganda pa kumuha ang mga unggoy kesa sa kanya with the watermark and all. Pathetic. PinApahiya lang niya ang sarili niya. Because this is what I can crap photography. Ni hindi nga siya photography. HIYANG HIYA AKO.

Natuwa naman ako sa CASA Cam (lablab. JANEE♥) dahil pumayag silang icover nila ang PressCon ng VINDICATE. Kinikiligs ako... Thanks to JONLO and KIMCHUWA. lablab. Yun lang... haha!

Nahiya lang ako kay Gian nung solicitations head siya, lahat nalang ng pwedeng makita sa mundo, ibebenta niya kung kaya niya. Grabe talaga... Nakakatawa one time, si Apul nagpapamasahe sakin kasi madalas ko siyang masahihin noon nung ako'y single pa lamang at maton pa ako.

APUL: Kuya Eiv, pamasahe naman ako...
GIAN: Singkwenta. AHAHAHHA!

Ang funny kaya...

I'm so stressed talaga these days... kelangan ko na ng topic sa Media Law next week para makapag-umpisa na ako kasi may addition yun.Parang ayoko na nga MMAB, nakakatamad na kasi... Nakakadown ang environment.

One time nga pala, nakasabay ko nga itong si kuya mo na nanghihingi ng professional fee. Kilala ko na siya at last pero napa-360° roll of eyes. Nakakainis diba? Naawa nalang talaga ako sa kanya. Whatever talaga.

I think kelangan ko na rin maningil ng Professional Fee for being a professional PLASTIKERO.

On Faith.

2008-10-20T19:57:00.000+08:00

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy speaks to his Class on the Problem Science has with GOD, The ALMIGHTY. He asks one of his New Christian Students to stand and . . .

Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So you Believe in GOD ?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD Good ?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL ?
Student : Yes.

Professor : My Brother died of Cancer even though he Prayed to GOD to Heal him.
Most of us would attempt to Help Others who are ill.
But GOD didn't.
How is this GOD Good then ? Hmm ?

( Student is silent )

Professor : You can't answer, can you ?
Let's start again, Young Fella.
Is GOD Good ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good ?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from ?
Student : From . . . GOD . . .
Professor : That's right.
Tell me son, is there evil in this World ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it ?
And GOD did make Everything. Correct ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil ?

( Student does not answer )

Professor : Is there Sickness ? Immorality ? Hatred ? Ugliness ?
All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they ?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who Created them ?

( Student has no answer )

Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you.
Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD ?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD ?
Student : No , sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD ?
Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter ?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still Believe in HIM ?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist.
What do you say to that, son ?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes. Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat ?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold ?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No sir. There isn't.

( The Lecture Theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events )

Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat.
But we don't have anything called Cold.
We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold.
Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat.
We cannot Measure Cold.
Heat is Energy.
Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.

( There is Pin - Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre )

Student : What about Darkness, Professor ? Is there such a thing as Darkness ?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness ?
Student : You're wrong again, sir.
Darkness is the Absence of Something.
You can have Low Light, Normal Light , Bright Light, Flashing Light . . .
But if you have No Light Constantly, you have Nothing and it's called Darkness, isn't it ?
In reality, Darkness isn't.
If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you ?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is Flawed.
Professor : Flawed ? Can you explain how ?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality.
You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD.
You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure.
Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought.
It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.
To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing.
Death is Not the Opposite of Life : just the Absence of it.
Now tell me, Professor, do you Teach your Students that they Evolved from a Monkey ?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir ?

( The Professor shakes his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument is going )

Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and cannot even prove that this Process is an On - Going Endeavor,
are you not Teaching your Opinion, sir ?
Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher ?

( The Class is in Uproar )

Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever Seen the Professor's Brain ?

( The Class breaks out into Laughter )

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever Heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it, Touched or Smelt it ? . . .
No one appears to have done so.
So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have No Brain, sir.
With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir ?

( The Room is Silent. The Professor stares at the Student, his face unfathomable )

Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir . . .
the Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.
That is all that Keeps Things Moving & Alive.

NB:
I believe you have enjoyed the Conversation . . . and if so . . .
you'll probably want your Friends / Colleagues to enjoy the same . . . won't you ? . . .
Forward them to Increase their Knowledge . . . or FAITH.

It turned out later that the student is Albert Einstein

oo na. OP na ko.

2008-10-18T05:49:00.000+08:00

potek.

tara uminom. pft.

the strangers (a review of)

2008-10-18T05:45:00.000+08:00

waaaaahhh!!!!

....

that's it. :)

...

2008-08-31T15:49:00.000+08:00

HINDI MO NA KAILANGAN PANG BASAHIN PA ANG BLOG KO PARA MALAMAN KUNG NAOFFEND AKO. OO, AT IKAW ANG DAHILAN. UMPISA PALANG HINDI NA AKO PUMAYAG PERO IKAW ANG NAGPILIT, KAYA IKAW DAPAT ANG TUMANGGAP NOON, PERO DAHIL MARTYR AKO, AKO NALANG TATANGGAP PARA SAYO. HINDI KO ITO KAILANMAN GINUSTO.

kung itlog ka lang, basag ka na kanina pa.

lipad

2008-08-25T00:01:00.001+08:00

nasa condo niya ko nun. tumingin ako sa labas ng bintana at may nakita akong plastic bag na lumilipad. di ko alam pero ako ang unang pumasok sa utak ko noon.

isinantulad ko ang aking sarili sa plastic bag na yun. dinadala lang ng hangin sa itaas, pero pag bumagsak na, di na alam kung asan siya; malayo na sa pinanggalingan.

isang piraso ng basura na umabot sa taas dahil lamang sa swerte.

ano ba kasing iniisip ko? madaming tao na mas bagay sa kanya. mas matalino, mayaman, mas may oras. di tulad ko, wala lang.

pero siya na ata ang pinakamagandang bagay na nagyari sakin. sa kanya ko lang naramdaman mga nararamdaman ko ngayon.

hindi lang maisip ang sarili ko na wala siya. di ko kaya na makita na sa ibang tao na sya sasandal. iniisip ko palang masakit na.

kakapit ako. hanggang mapagod ang hangin sa kakaihip sakin pataas.

like this is sooo funny, you know, nakakatawa? :)

2008-08-21T07:29:00.000+08:00

this is a repost. it's so funny i have to share it to you guys.

rock rock sa air, ang ma-hit don't make galit. ü

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Ten Conyomandments

by Gerry Avelino and Arik Abu
(taken from The La Sallian-Menagerie)

Conyo here, conyo there, conyo everywhere! Here at La Salle, conyospeak has become an unofficial language as a good chunk of the student body knows, or maybe even mastered the socialite tongue. However, one must never forget the basics of the conyo and we thusly bring you: The Ten Conyomandments.

1. Thou shall make gamit "make+pandiwa".
ex.
"Let's make pasok na to our class!"
"Wait lang! I'm making kain pa!"
"Come on na, we can't make hintay anymore! It's in Andrew pa, you know?"

2. Thou shall make kalat "noh", "diba" and "eh" in your pangungusap.
ex.
"I don't like to make lakad in the baha nga, no? Eh diba it's like, so eew, diba?"
"What ba: stop nga being maarte noh?"
"Eh as if you want naman also, diba?"

3. When making describe a whatever, always say "It's SO" pang-uri!
ex.
"It's so malaki, you know, and so mainit!"
"I know right? So sarap nga, eh!"
"You're making me inggit naman.. I'll make bili nga my own burger."

4. When you are lalaki, make parang punctuation "dude", 'tsong" or "pare"
ex.
"Dude, ENGANAL is so hirap, pare."
"I know, tsong, I got bagsak nga in quiz one, eh"

5. Thou shall know you know? I know right!
ex.
"My bag is so bigat today, you know"
"I know, right! We have to make dala pa kasi the jumbo Physics book eh!"

6. Make gawa the plural of pangngalans like in English or Spanish.
ex.
"I have so many tigyawats, oh!"

7. Like, when you can make kaya, always use like. Like, I know right?
ex.
"Like, it's so init naman!"
"Yah! The aircon, it's, like sira!"

8. Make yourself feel so galing by translating the last word of your sentence, you know, your pangungusap?
ex.
"Kakainis naman in the LRT! How plenty tao, you know, people?"
"It's so tight nga there, eh, you know, masikip?"

9. Make gamit of plenty abbreviations, you know, daglat?"
ex.
"Like, OMG! It's like traffic sa LRT"
"I know right? It's so kaka!"
"Kaka?"
"Kakaasar!"

10. Make gamit the pinakamaarte voice and pronunciation you have para full effect!
ex.
"I'm, like, making aral at the Arrhneo!"
"Me naman, I'm from Lazzahl!"

The JUL26 Celebrants

2008-07-18T16:59:00.001+08:00

Walang kaugnayan ang Nickname niya sa tunay niyang pangalan.
Kapag tumawa siya ng awkward, totoong tawa niya yun ibig sabihin.
wala sa topic ang mga hirit niya kaya madalas namin siyang sabihan ng "nyenyenye..."
the 13th member ng KADA, bagong sapi lang niya sa kada last year.
CASA President siya this year, at bibbong bibbo siya.
Artista de Santissima baby siya at siya ang aming Production Designer.
Ayaw niyang mag-auditions tuwing musical kasi nahihiya siyang pagtawanan ng mga tao, pero sa CASA Campaign, ok lang.
Madalas niyang nakakalimutan ang mga sasabihin niya sakin.
Mahilig siya sa mga wirdong mga damit, mukha siyang Art Teacher.
May theory akong after 20 years, malilimutan niya ang pangalan niya at tatawagin niya ang ibang mga tao with her name.

haha... yun. ten facts.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! :P LABYU!!!

award

2008-07-01T21:35:00.000+08:00

mapunta tayo sa usapang awards.

kanina, i was at starbs edsa central alone. i need my TIN number for my new work at makati.

dumating ako dun ng mga 9pm-ish. the person who could look my TIN up wasn't there yet. 11pm pa daw. sige, i'll wait since sayang ang pinunta ko pag umuwi ako.

so there i was, sa kapihan, mag-isa. i needed something to do other than coffee and yosi. wow, may newspaper. asteeeeg.

i read two newspapers. same headlines. about this good woman who gave up being a journalist in the US and became part of a group of people who helps somewhere in ifugao. nice girl. she taught and english and literature to kids, and she had to walk a lot just to get to where the kids are. nice noh? yun nga lang pinatay sya while she was walking alone.

the bastard who killed her said, in his defense, that he thaught the lady was his enemy from the village. doy. nakak-inis na rason yan amp. the girl hit from behind by a stone, got 15 brusises, mainly sa ulo. if i were the bastard, i would've realized that i was hitting the wrong person maybe.. i dunno, sa unang hit ko sa kanya?

bastard was sentenced a lifetime in prison. he can't be killed, kasi bawal sa pinas ang death sentence.

it's just sad that this woman had a such good intensions tas papatayin sya ng walang kamalay-malay. at ang pinaka-sad sa lahat was she was given the Order of the Golden Heart award after her death. posthumously, ika nga.

really sad that we recognize a thing that's good apag wala na.

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speakin of awards, sa theater org namin sa UST, award might mean another thing. pede itong maging pagpapagalit, pambebenga, pangki-criticize. maaawardan ka pag pinapagalitan ka.

kania, inawardan ko ang HR department ng company ko dati.

grr.. pano, they were supposed to process my TIN dati pa. i worked for 4months dun, and they were taking deductions for taxes. tas ngayon hihingin ko lang yung TIN ko wala silang mabigay. bummer is an understatement.

'i curse the day they were born!' haha. ang kulit kasi.

anyway, i'll deal with 'em later. i think i should sleep now.

testing

2008-05-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

hello?

2008-05-21T23:24:00.000+08:00

prepare
for a big
CHANGE

Para sa inyong matinding kaalaman

2008-05-15T09:43:00.002+08:00

Para sa inyong matinding kaalaman, dinelete na ni anne ang kanyang blog na super-anne.blogspot.com.

Ito ay sa kadahilanang nakapagdudulo't ito ng sari-saring mga pasaring na hindi naayon sa pakikipagkapwa. Mahirap ang naging desisyong ito, ngunit kailangan na agad ipagdulot upang sa gayon ay mabigyan ng kaukulang aksyon ang kawalanghiyaan na naganap. Bilang nawala at naputol na ang nasabing akmaan ng mga damdaming nabuo, ay magbibigay parin naman ang nasabing babae ng kanyang mga mensahe sa blog na ito.

hindi ko rin naintindihan yung sinabi ko sa itaas. Basta, in short, hindi ko na kasi maupdate, sa muliply nalang yung gamitin ko.

so hommies, fans, and countrymen, sa annetukinn.multiply.com nalang tayo magkita-kita.

P.S.

missing you!

2008-04-29T12:41:00.002+08:00

Kung wala namang nag-eexpect...
wala namang madidisappoint, diba?

missing

2008-04-28T01:20:00.001+08:00

have nothing to say actually...
i just miss you guys.
i love you all! :)
putek.

kumpisal

2008-02-02T16:37:00.001+08:00

kada.

meron akong ipagtatapat. medyo nakaka-gulat. pero alam ko naman maiintindihan nyo kong lahat. hindi ko kaagad sinabi sa inyo kasi natatakot ako. pero kagabi napag-usapan namin to.

nakabuntis ako.

three months na. napag-awayan na namin kagabi. wala na. may pananagutan na ko.

natatakot ako, sino bang di matatakot? di ko alam kung ano dapat kong gawin. naghiwalay na din kami ni oliver dahil dito. parang wala na talaga akong alam sa buhay.

hindi ko alam kung anung uunahin ko. i don't know what steps to take. i'm lost.

actually. joke lang naman lahat ng nakasulat sa taas. gusto ko lang magpapansin at sabihing namiss ko kayo ng sobra sobra. kada will always be like family to me. *awww...* kung may nasaktan ako o nasabing hindi nyo gusto, sorry. di ko sinasadya yun. basta alam ko mahal ko kayong lahat.

ok ba? see you guys soon. ü

2008-01-06T16:42:00.001+08:00

sana katulad nalang ng dati...

2007-11-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

"minsan hindi ko maintindihan, bakit parang ang buhay natin ay napagtri-tripan?

medyo malabo yata ang mundo, binabasura ng iba ang siyang pinapangarap ko."

yun na.

Love with the capital N.

2007-11-20T14:15:00.000+08:00

I L♥VE the rules.

Not.

2007-11-01T10:17:00.000+08:00

"the door knob smiles at me alone..
but will i open the door again?
i've seen this happening before..
i've seen my self fall face first on the floor"- On the Floor, Spongecola

Yes ate come on ate...

2007-10-29T02:38:00.000+08:00

KUNG....

FU...!

wala na kasing nakasulat d2...!
____________________________
The sound fades and the sermon negates...

OPERASYONG PAMILYA 2007

2007-10-20T15:42:00.000+08:00

CONGRATS SA OP.
SOBRANG SAYA.

hehe.

2007-08-20T09:49:00.000+08:00

napansin ko lang...

mukha palang showbiz news ang lay-out natin... *ehem*

hehe... epal lang...

happy monthsary din sa inyo marlon and angge!
7th namin kahapon... hehe...
bati naman jan...

apir!

2007-08-14T11:51:00.000+08:00

if there was one thing i remember from maam yanga's lesson, it would not be history,
it would be a single phrase..

"lilipas din toh"

so yun..

for whatever shits my family and i are going through...
lilipas din to.
i may cry--a lot, but i wipe them dry...

lilipas din to.

so KADA.
i love you so much....
thank you for all the help,
i am weak, very weak,
at tulad nga ng sinasabi ni gab:
"there's something in kai na kakaltokkaltok..."
the world shits on me so much...
too much..
pero i am very thankful na nandyan kayo...
i may be needing your help again..
babawi din ako...

i love you so much....

parusahan

2007-05-15T19:48:00.000+08:00

kanina pa kita tinatawagan.

*ring*
*ring*
*ring*

panay ang pag-ring, ngunit wala namang sumasagot.
mga ilang beses ko ring paulit-ulit na dinial ang number mo,
ngunit ilang beses rin akong nabigong makausap ka.

parang kagabi lang, ikaw ang kasama ko.
parang kagabi lang, ikaw ang nasa kama ko.

kagabi tumawag ka, nagkwento sandali, si kwan nakipagsuntukan ke kwan kasi si kwan nakipaganuhan daw kay ano.

wala ako naintindihan sa kwento mo, hindi ko naman kilala si kwan at si ano, pero ikinundisyon ko na ang sarili ko na bagamat hindi mo sabihin, alam kong anuhan ang gusto mong gawin.

"punta ko dyan ha?"

pupunta ka dito sa iisang dahilan. lagi naman.
yun lang naman ang alam mong gawin sa akin.

parausan.

kaya nga ng gabing iyon, pagkababa ng telepono, muli akong naligo, nagpabango at nagsuot ng desenteng panty at bra. eksklusibo, para lamang sa mga panahong tulad nito na kinakailangang akitin kita, harutin ko ang imahinasyon mo, paligayahin ka. yan lang naman ang silbi ng katawan ko para sayo. iisa lang naman ang tingin mo sa akin. sa sarili ko. sa buong pagkatao ko.

parausan.

makalipas ang dalawang oras. kumatok ka na nga sa bahay, ni ha ni ho wala. yun na. lagi namang yun na agad. ikaw lahat. tagatanggap lang naman ako ng kahit anong ibibigay mo. 'di pwedeng humingi. dapat kontento kahit hindi ako nasisiyahan sa istilo mo. halik dito, halik doon. pasok dito, pasok doon. tapos yun na, tapos na. ni hindi ko namalayang tapos ka na pala. lagi namang natatapos ng ganun. kasi nga ikaw lang naman nakikinabang.

parausan.

*ring*

panay ang ring ng telepono mo.
panay din ang ikot ng mundo ko.
ikot ng ikot ang likot likot.

panay ang ikot ng maliit kong mundo
sa ring ng telepono mo,
sa pagkalalaki mo,
sa pagwawalang bahala mo,
sa pagkamanhid mo.
sa pang-aabuso mo.

parausan.

*ring*
*ring*
*ring*
ikot
ikot
ikot
*ring*
ikot
*ring*
ikot
*ring*
ikot

ayoko naaaaa!!!
tama na! nahihilo na ako!
ayoko naaaaaaaaaa!!!

"hello?"
"ha! ay! uy!"
"ok ka lang?"
"ano kasi... umm.. pwede bang pun----"
"uy! mamaya na lang ha? may ginagawa ako! bye!"
*click*
"---ta ka dito...."
*toot toot tooot*

...

at tumigil nga ang ikot.

leche. hanggang kelan ba to? bakit kapag ako nangangailangan hindi pwede? bakit paglibog mo, pwede. kapag akin hindi?
punyeta.
punyeta.
puta.

ako nga pala yun!hahaha

isang puta.

bakit nga ba naghahangad pa ako ng higit pa sa init ng katawan?
eh yun lang naman ang papel ko sa simula't simula?
sa dampi pa lang ng labi niya,
sa alingasaw ng katawan ko pagkatapos niya akong gamitin,
sa gusot ng kumot,
sa mga damit sa sahig,
sa ingay ng iyong bibig,
hanggang doon lang iyon.
hanggang doon lamang...

parausan.

*ring*

heto nanaman...
iikot nanaman...

"hello?"

marahil hindi na nga dapat ako humingi ng kahit ano pa.

"pupunta ako diyan ha? bye!"

marahil hanggang dito na nga lang talaga...

parausan.

vote AKAPIN for PARTYLIST

2007-05-11T13:12:00.000+08:00

para sa mga botante na dyan.
choose the MOST MARGINALIZED or yung
under-represented na sector of society.
yung mga "Persons With Disabilities"
okay?
kaya please vote AKAPIN
"Alyansa ng may Kapansanang Pinoy"

thank you :)
message me for details :p

2007-05-09T15:15:00.000+08:00

another shot at happily-ever-after

2007-05-05T21:15:00.001+08:00

haha. tama nga si marlon.

bullshit talaga pag sinabi nang babae na busy siya sa pagaaral.

diba?

haha.

2007-05-05T21:03:00.000+08:00

summer is such a long time.
kelan tayo uli magkikikita-kita?
miss ko na ang KADA!

love you guys.

2007-04-14T16:15:00.000+08:00

ang alindog ay tunay ng nabuhay muli..

masaya ako...

bored ako...

kausapin niyo ako..

swimming tayo mga chong...

pero ayokong magplano kasi sabi nga ni gabby

" pag si angge ang nagplano... HINDI MATUTULOY!!!"

kaya ayoko.. kayo mag plano ok???

2007-04-06T03:33:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!
HINDI AKO DEBARRED!!!
HAROO!!!
@#$%!

arrouch...

2007-03-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

if ever nga...
ako ang una sa atin.

mamahalin niyo parin ba ako kapag...

DEBARRED NA AKO?!

aw.
saklap.

2007-03-28T23:59:00.000+08:00

ready steady cant hold me back.

ready steady Give me Good luck.

ready steady never look back.

lets Get started ready steady Go!!

ayan ang laman nang isip ko ngayon. haha

2007-03-07T17:30:00.000+08:00

FERK

as i look in the mirror i was surprised
because i can hardly recognize myself-
is that me smiling?

a smile.
i never saw that smile
or maybe i did
it's just been so long since i last saw it

but why am i smiling?
why am i smiling about HIM?

it doesn't mean anything when he said
he misses me
even if he says it everyday
and everynight

so what if he says he wants you where he
is
wherever he goes and as often
as possible?

it doesn't even say anything
when he brigs you to your office
and calls you up once in a while
just to check

and when he asked you if it was okay
to go out with an old friend
and asked you if you were angry
you said you weren't, right?

then i said,
i'd rather smile now because i know someday i might
have to leave him

once his heart heals,
my job is done
and it would be my turn to heal
because as i help him heal his wounds

i make some of my own
and he will not understand why i have them
or at least
he shouldn't know

afraid to let go of the feeling
even if i know it's best
what an irony, how i help him with his heart
and how helpless i am with my own

if i seek your help
will you feel what i feel now?
just thinking. no, hoping
that you might

stupid, that's what i am.
and stupid i'll remain till that day when
you wouldn't need me anymore.

and when that day comes
i'll look back in the mirror and see
how that smile made me change
and how that change made me smile.

Hindi ko gustong umalis.

2007-02-17T12:24:00.000+08:00

actually I never left, I was just here all the time.

kala ko kaya ko...

hindi pala.

mahal na mahal ko kayo.

2006-10-21T20:17:00.000+08:00

naglaro ba kayo ng chrono trigger at chrono cross?

kung saan nagtime travel sila para mailigtas ang mundo mula kay lavos.

at sa sequel na chrono cross, nagsisisi sila dahil iniba nila ang takbo nang panahon.

well, tama nga talaga ang kasabihang, the only permanent thing in this world is change.

totoo nga yata.

2006-10-01T16:35:00.000+08:00

galit ba kayo?

nakakahiya ako no?

sana kasing galing niyo din ako.

God, please give me the gift of RHYTHM.

kahit 2 araw lang po. please?

nasaktan.

2006-09-14T08:13:00.000+08:00

kinaawaan

tinanggap

ginamit

nagmahal

pinaglaruan

tinapon

ngunit...

may puso din naman ako na

nasasaktan.

fell and then rose again.

dahil walang new post

2006-09-07T10:56:00.000+08:00

go San Beda fight three times (pare)!

we were like in araneta center cubao yesterday to watch this big game of Beda against Letran. i was still in my corporate attire. i wanted to buy a shirt pero i don't have enough bucks na kasi i bought tickets pa.

we went to alimall muna to eat at tokyo tokyo's. i know it's in the vicinity pero i never really went there. ang layo pala nun sa gateway. sana we took a cab nalang kasi it was like sobrang mainit that day. as in uber init.

after eating we went to araneta na. ang haba ng pila dude. so this is really a big game huh?

ayon. we went in the wrong side at first, i mean, the people there were like wearing blue so we assumed na there were letranites. umalis kami kasi baka they would make kuyog to all of us. scary. we made our way to OUR side. miko kept on sayin 'ayan, mga letranista yan! SAMBEDANS tayo!' i was making takot na kasi baka nga we get into a fight. pero we made it without being hit by people naman.

UMPA UMPA times two
letran drew first blood kasi they like scored first. my hopes were still high, pero as the game went on parang i am losing hope na. pare ten points ba naman ang lamang diba? i wanted to hear the cheer na. it's like an energy boost talaga pare.

the pep squad finally made tugtog na the cheer and everybody made sali. it has a great effect on us kasi nga Beda was like losing na.

sa fourth quarter naging uber ganda ng game.. well, for the Bedans.

kasi nga we were like coming back into the game. soon we made overtake na the score of Letran. i was on my feet, shouting my lungs off na nga eh. i imagine how weird i look like in my clothes. i didn't care na because i was so like happy already. the heck diba?

ayon, beda won against letran. woot pare! joy!

anyway, peace tayo mga letranites. sana walang away.

and i'm really not like this when i speak dudes. i just got a hang over on being conyo, pero i'm not talaga.

swear pare.

love is just glove minus the g

2006-08-22T09:47:00.000+08:00

you know you should move on, but you just can't. you do not undersand what happened... you were okay in the beginning... but beginnings were never meant to last.

when i met you, at first, i really didn't take notice of you. yeah we texted and talked, but i really didn't take you in too much. i had my life and you had yours, which where two VERY seperate things altogether.

but then we started texting and talking more often. i started seeing how you really are. i started to appreciate every message you send, every call you make, and even the calls i miss (which were a lot and i am very sorry for that). i soon wanted to hear your laughter. i wanted to hear your stories. i wanted to hear you.

we were okay in the beginning... but you made me realize that beginnings were never meant to last...

i do not understand why you suddenly wanted to leave. i just don't. i am here and i want to help you. i tried acting that i was fine, that everything was alright. but i just couldn't. won't you give me a chance to prove to you that i want you to be happy? i don't mind getting hurt, i just want to fix you...

but what is the use?

you've already said your goodbye.

now i'll say mine.

goodbye then.

-ehji

2006-08-21T13:18:00.000+08:00

Ikaw ang gumagawa nang sarili mong tadhana..

Harapin nang buong tapang ang ihahandog sa iyo ng hinaharap.

2006-08-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

As I write these words, tears are running down my cheeks..
but these tears are the last tears that I would be shedding for HIM.

I know it has been years and I should have done this a long time ago but I am

FINALLY LETTING GO..

I have uttered these words before but they were merely said but I never really learned to do so.

It all started when yesterday afternoon, I found out that a friend of mine happens to be HIS friend way back in High School. We did not talk much about HIM but just this afternoon, he sort of told me something, which really hit me. It was as if I have spent the past few years being the dumbest person alive. He need not say much but I got what he meant. I must say he was not the first person to tell me that for my friends have been saying the same words but it was a lot different when it came from him. He is HIS friend for crying out loud!!!

Enough is enough.. I know it would be hard but at least this time it is me telling myself that it is over. Yes, I admit that I have always believed that WE would end up together but not anymore. I am FREE!!! Free from the pain, free from being stupid, free from HIM!!!

I would not let myself be HIS prisoner anymore.
I have closed the door that led to HIM and I swear I would never ever open it again..
My bitterness is over. I know I would never forget HIM, but I know I would learn to live WITHOUT HIM. HE is not my world anymore and HE will never be again. I do not know if WE could be friends in the near future but that does not really matter anymore. What matters is that I have accepted the truth.. HE is not worth waiting for, HE is not worth it!!! period!!!!! I’ve had enough..

So as I wipe my tears, I say that

Finally…
Angge is free!!!

reconciliation...

2006-08-13T14:55:00.000+08:00

okay...

pride is the only thing that keeps this argument going...

hindi ako nakikipagplastikan, pare... labs ko kayo noh... hello?
hindi ako taong plastik... siguro minsan sa iba.. pero hindi sa KADA.
chumechempo lang ako pero nasasabi ko sa inyo ang mga issues ko... pero nasasabi ko at the right time... :D
isa ako sa bumuo at bumubuo sa KADA...
ako ba ang sisira nito? ayaw ko nga. kaya nga may KADA e...

grabe talaga... maliit na emote-emote naging ganito kalaking issue? wag na lang... kung ito lang ang sisira sa KADA...

let's end this.

Im sorry. I was wrong.
please forgive me. (teary eyes)
and can we forget this?
and be what we used to be...?
please...
now Im not compromising...
Im now reconciling...
ayoko ng away lalo na ngayong masaya na ako... :D

thanks. :)

masaya dapat tayong lahat... :)
basta a... ayoko na... peace.. :D
love you guys... :D
tama na... okay? please please please...

*kung negative parin ang dating sayo... sinasabi ko nang hindi... kasi ganito talaga ako magsulat... please... please... hehe...

2006-08-07T18:08:00.000+08:00

it was supposed to be a night of fun.

i went to party with my friends last saturday. we were dancing and drinking and laughing and talking the night away, just as any party-goer does in a saturday night.

i went there with some new friends, but spent the night with some old friend i texted up. he was there so i went with his group.

so there i was, met all of his friend and became friends with them too. party.

around 2:50am, they already decided to go. to me, it was a tad too early to leave, but because i said i'll go home with them, i did.

i was seated at the back of the adventure, with BJ and MYKS. and eventually it became just myks and i, bj had to transfer to the passenger's seat. the trip was a bit weird, but i am not going mention why or how weird it was.

so there we were, me in my weird state. the car was running fast, and i was a bit anxious. more weird moments, perhaps the weirdest of all. suddenly the car swerved so violently and i thought rocky was mad and he was running furiously. the next moment i hit the right side of the car with a bang, then the right side of the car fell.

imagine a roller coaster ride. fast, and quite dangerous. imagine it turning around its loop. now imagine it happening to you in your own car.

i saw the car turn, i didn't know how many turns we had. people say we turned thrice. i had my eyes open. i banged into the sides as our car turned. it was a scary thing, having seen how everything happened. i was half expecting for the car to give in and hit us all with it's bending metal. i saw shattered glass. i wrapped my arms around the person next to me, for him to be safe. i thought we were all going to die.

my eyes were wide open.. but i didn't want to see...

i was praying for dear life. we were in between the space of the roof of the car and the right side of the car. we skidded for a considerable amount of distance, still expecting for the worst. i think i saw sparks from the friction of the metal and the road. i don't know, everything happened so fast. will i die?

the next thing i knew was that we were making our way out of the car (which stopped at its right side). i didn't know how we got out. i didn't know how we survived. i was hearing cries from one of the girls.

all of a sudden people were around us. i wasn't paying much attention to them. i was more concerned to how my friends were. the girls were crying. rocky seemed not hurt, but he was awfully silent. myks was alright, miller too. bj took in charge of everything. he was talking to the people, telling them what happened.

i was okay, or at first i thought i was. but when i stood a good distance from the car, i realized that my knee and my right arm were hurt. miller saw that i was hurt and sat me down. i was in shock. i was in real shock. i wanted to cry but i was scared of what might happen if i let myself cry. i might get into one of my rare seizures (i've been through a heart surgery). my head was hurt and miller massaged it. i don't know if it did help, but i wasn't that afraid anymore.

i sat there. the girls, myks and miller were sent to rocky's relatives for help. they left. i sat there. looking at how bj handled the situation. i didn't know if i could do that. he was brave. i was too, i just didn't know.. i just sat there and looked. we could've died... all of us..

then bj came with my phone, and instantly i texted my grandma to fetch me up. i wanted to see the doctor. i didn't want to leave bj and rocky alone (we were the only ones left) but my left knee and my right arm were aching. my dad arrives with my lola and tita. i bade farwell to bj and rocky and told them i'd be back. i was brought to the hospital.

i didn't get any serious injury, nabugbog lang daw yung mga muscles ko. i never wanted to be in the hospital again. no more wheelchairs for me. i have had enough of those.

i went back to where the car was and found only bj and denise. i find it only rational to be with them. we went to the investigators together. i on the passenger's seat, they on the back seat.

we gave our statements and went home.

i realized a lot of things. each i cannot say. one thing is that i have to say i love you to the people i cherish. i may never get the chance to tell them. i also realized that everyone in the accident were important to me, yes YOU are.

to my friends:
i love you all.

to Him:
thanks for giving me yet another chance. how many times was i suppose to die? since i was born i had perils. mortal perils. i do not know yet what i am to do, but i hope to do it in your name's sake.

siguro nga ikaw lang ang gumagawa ng dahilan kung bakit ka mamamatay, pero ikaw din ang gumagawa nang desisyon kung mabubuhay ka. nagdesisyon na ako, gusto kong mabuhay.

Nagising ako kaninang alas diyes

2006-08-06T14:45:00.000+08:00

Nagising ako kaninang alas diyes.
Chi-neck ang cellphone ko...
at nagimbal sa isang mensahe:

"Naaksidente aq passing ortigas. Bumaliktad ung cnasakyan namin na car.
Thank God buhay pa q. I love you all guys."

-Edge
4:11:46 AM

Tumalon ang puso ko. Kung sinu-sino ang tinawagan. Buti na lang sabi ni Lola walang masamang nangyari. Konting galos lang at namamagang katawan.
Tatlong beses bumaliktad ang kotse. Dahil sa isang aso lang.
Muntikang mawala ang ilang buhay, ang isa sa kanila, pinakamamahal nating lahat.
Nang makausap siya, ang una niya daw ginawa ay iparating sa lahat na mahal niya tayo.

Hindi natin alam kung kailan ang katapusan, bago pa ang lahat, gusto ko lang sabihin na mahal na mahal ko kayo, at alam kong ganun din ang maisasambit niyo. Maaaring sa atin, sa ibang katauhan o porma ang "Aso" sa kwento ni Edge. Kaya huwag sayangin ang oras, dahil hindi laging ikaw ang gumagawa ng dahilan ng ikamamatay mo.

pasabog... :) at my own death...

2006-08-06T03:03:00.000+08:00

dahil sabi ng baybayin cards na malalaman nyo ang sikreto ko...

kaya...

hindi ko muna sasabihin...

ksi baka ikamatay ko ito... :)

hehehe...

pasabog toh...

yun lang...

after ng prod overnight tau...

at sana dun masabi ko...

umiiral na naman ang pagkalalaki ko...
"kapag gusto ko gusto ko"

"ikaw lang ang gumagawa ng dahilan kung bakit ka mamamatay..."- Gabso

guys.. philophilicism is back online....

2006-08-03T16:14:00.000+08:00

philophilicism signing in...

im back..

ngpaparamdam lng ako.. tsaka n ko mglalagay ng post...

üüü

2006-07-30T16:40:00.000+08:00

DAPAT SANA
ni gab caraon

lumisan sakin ang pagsikat
iniwanan ako sa dapit-hapon..

nagkamali ako
hindi dapat ito pinipilit
hindi dapat sinasakal

hindi sapat na makitang
masaya ang mga kulay na kanyang hatid

kulay kahel at asul
dapat tinamasa't pinasalamatan

ngayo'y kapiling ang dapit hapon
sa kabilang dako and araw

umiiyak sa piling ng ibang dalampasigan

picture care of mingu

Is it my fault im such a good guy?

2006-07-26T22:38:00.000+08:00

Dahil sa request ni jmee at angge...

okay ito na...

a small part of my filling...

my last letter 2 my ex...

which i don't even know if she actually read...

Sorry. Good luck. Hope. These are just three words from a dictionary full. Yet even the whole dictionary would be inadequate to convey the true depth of my feelings. Still, words are all I have. Can mere words encompass the totality of feelings? I don’t think so. Nor I can believe that love is just a bunch of neurons and electrical impulses doing a chemical dance in our heads.

Sorry for everything that I did. I just don’t want to reminisce all my mishaps or maybe it is because I don’t even remember. Though the other faults where not totally my responsibility it is still a part of me so I’m sorry. I never expected you to react this way on the things I did, but that is what I like about you, you’re different. Lastly and again sorry…

Good luck. I have a good life and so do you but my life is more complicated than yours. You see I had tried to place you in the part my life where you should not be. I tried to save something that was already dead. Still I have no regrets. The moment I realized his existence I knew I have to stop. You love him and hopefully he would return it. If you are angry or worried that things between both of you might get complicated when I’m around do not worry for I was never and never will interfere. For as my saying goes "I was never given the right to deprive anyone of a smile". All I want is the sight of you being happy and if it is with him then I’m all for it. I wish the best for the both of you. Lastly, if everything between both of you worked well try writing it in a story and later on I would gladly make it a film.

Hope. There is so many things I did and some things that I didn’t. Hopefully you will forgive me for everything. Don’t worry you already told me to stop so I would. Though loving is not something to say sorry for I would still say sorry for loving you. I thought I would never fall in love again thus my age limit of having relationships. But you made me fall in love once more. You had shown me a new world. Thus, you would occupy a special place in my life. Hopefully we could be friends again like we used to.

One last thing, I had set my computer to October 22, 2004 7am a day before we met and I wish you would also do the same, in this simple way we could go back in time and pretend to forget the things that happened. Just like that, it wouldn’t be easy for me but that’s just the way it is things would never be the same.

Smile lang lagi ha ang ganda mo kasi pagnakangiti ka.

Korny ko no.

Oo nga pala ako yung manhid.

-that's all folks hope you enjoy my deep dark side...- Marlon J. Locsin

Guys To Girls...

2006-07-23T02:33:00.000+08:00

The Guys' Rules

At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down Finally , the guys' side of the story.

(I must admit, it's pretty good.)We always hear " the rules "From the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side.These are our rules!

Please note.. these are all numbered "1"ON PURPOSE!

1. Men ARE not mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat.You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.We need it up, you need it down.You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides.Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport.And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work!Strong hints do not work!Obvious hints do not work!Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly Acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only If you want help solving it. That's what we do.Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem See a doctor.1. Anyth ing we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.Don't ask us.1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

1. You can either ask us to do somethingOr tell us how you want it done.Not both.If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.Peach, for example, is a fruit, not! A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will Be scratched.We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong.We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear Is fine... Really .

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or golf.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

Pass this to as many men as you can -to give them a laugh.
Pass this to as many women as you can
to give them a bigger laugh

"I don't agree on some of the staments but some points are true."

-Marlon J. Locsin

HURRY! ENROLLMENT ON-GOING!!

2006-07-05T14:54:00.000+08:00

siguro mayamaya, makikipagbreak nanaman siya sakin.. at para hindi ako mabakante. para naman hindi ko isuklam ang pag-ibig sa susunod na mga pesteng araw ng buhay ko. mag-popost ako ng application form for a new partner:

((please fill out the form and mail to bludox@yahoo.com))

Name:
Age:
Birthday:

cut the crap. let's make it more relationship-specific.

Name:
Sex/Gender: MALE/ choose: (Bi, Straight, Metrosexual, Multi-sexual)
Baog ka ba? Yes or No.
Are you a horny-pervert? if yes proceed to #31 if not-so-much, answer #5.
How many ex-girlfriendsss?
Had FUBUs?How many?if more than one proceed to #31
Practiced safe sex with past relationships? (baka may anak ka na pala.)
Educational Attainment:
Employed? If yes, answer follwing questions. If not proceed to #14
How much is your salary?
Kaya mo ba ko pag-aralin?
Mapapadoktor mo ba ko pag-nagkasakit ako?
Mapapagawan mo ba ng bahay mga magulang ko?
Magpapakilala ka ba naman sa mga magulang ko??
Do you remember anniversaries?If yes proceed to #16, If no proceed to #31
Do you give gifts?if yes proceed to #17. if no proceed to #18
Price range from what price to what price?
How often will you hurt me in a day?
Will you love the people , places and things i love?
Are you allergic to dogs?if no, proceed to #21, if yes proceed to #31
Do you have a nice nape? (batok) attach picture.
Do you have good conversation skills?
Good grammar?
God Fearing?
Do you attend mass?
Are you even CATHOLIC??
What are your likes?
Dislikes?
Knows how to kiss? If yes, proceed to #30 if no, proceed to #31
Will you truly love me?

Requirements:

Whole Body picture. Preferably with clothes on.
A close-up picture of your nape (batok)
Birth Certificate, proving you're human.
NBI clearance. proving your still HUMAN.
SSS. and ME, as your beneficiary.
The Title of your parent's house. The AUTHENTIC copy.
An essay entitled: "How I Can Make Kai Happy Spiritually, Nutritionally, Educationally, Physically and Sexually"

FAQ.

Q: Where is question number 31?Im kinda getting lost...- posted by hornyguyimyours

A: EXACTLY!!

2006-06-29T22:44:00.000+08:00

You're weird.

Whats up with that?

Oh, and i realized something.

I really am a stoooopid bobo butt-ugly dude.

fuck.

Here's the funny part.

I'm still the same.

WOOO!!!!

2006-06-26T17:54:00.000+08:00

kumusta mga ATE at KUYA?

tae. post ko na naman ang walang kwenta. nais ko lamang batiin ang mga nag-gagandahan at naggwagwapuhang pinakabagong mga ATE at KUYA ng Artistang Artlets!

MGA GUSTONG ITANONG NG KALALAKIHANSA MGA KABABAIHAN

2006-06-14T18:56:00.000+08:00

MGA GUSTONG ITANONG NG KALALAKIHANSA MGA KABABAIHAN
(na sinagutan ng mga babae kada sa tingin mo tama ba?)

1. baket ang babae ang dame tanong?
kasi ang mga lalake ang dami pang palusot nanalalaman…hindi na lang sumagot ng derecho…kaya tanong kami ng tanong. :)

2. ano pinag-uusapan niyo sa loob ng comfortroom?
chismis. Buhay ng may buhay. hehe

3. ano meron sa kikay bag?
lip tint, concealer.

4. nakapasok na ba kayo sa guy's cr?
accidentally. Nagtetext kasi habang naglalakad.Haha. Hindi ko tuloy alam mali pala na pasukanko :)

5. pumupunta lang ba kayo sa starbucks dahil sapoging barista?Saan?! Wala naman e…

6. hindi ba kayo nagsasawa sa "iced tea?"
ako oo. Sa coke hindi. haha

7. ano feeling ng tinititigan kayo?
kebs ko

8. eh yung may ibang klaseng titig?
aba edi magtitigan kami.

9. do you really keep "secrets"?
who doesn’t?

10. baket galet kayo kay kris aquino?hindi a. naririndi lang.

11. baket gustong-gusto niyo yung "a walk toremember?"
not me. :) mas gusto ko ung 50 first dates

12. baket pag-senabe namin maganda ang isanggurl, either bola or bola lang yun..
depende siguro. A ewan

13. baket pag tumingin kame sa emailed nudepics, malaswa na kame?
oi wla akong sinabing ganyan ha. Dpende pa dinkung sadya or hindi. :)

14. ano pa ba?
aba malay ko, ikaw nagtatanong e

15. baket mataray kayo minsan?
PMS…or nakakairita ka lang tlga

16. baket kayo nagpupuyat?
insomniac ako e

17. ano gusto niyo sagot ng guy pag tinatanongniyo kung "payat ba or tumaba ako"
ung totoo.

18-a bakit ang tagal ng mga babae kapag pumupunta sa banyo?
kasi nagdadaldalan pa kami

18-b bakit kelangan na in groups?
alangan naming kausapin namin sarili namin diba?

19 bakit mahilig kayo sa pink?
hindi naman lahat e

20 bakit ang hilig tumili ng mga babae?
matakot ka pag sumigaw ang girl tpos kaboses ni big brother.

21 bakit kayo moody?
mas moody ang mga lalake! I can attest to that.

22. batet kayo nangungurot! masakit yun ah...:(a ewan

23. mahilig kayo magpalibre..
hindi lahat ng babae “bilmoko”

21. ano ang definition niyo ng "makulet"?
ung wlang tigil sa pagpapacute, e hindi naman cute

22. aminin niyo kayo nag-pauso ng "me" na text lingo

HINDI AKO PAPAYAG. haha

23. sama mo na rin *** "smiles" na letter u / ,
un pwede pa :)

24. tsaka :hmp:? kayo nagpauso nun ryt?
aba malay ko

25. hindi talaga kayo nagsasawa sa iced tea?promise?
sabi nang oo e

26. kayo lang ba may karapatan gumamit ng lipbalm?
of course not

27. mabango ba talaga ang clinique happy?
yes yes yes.

28. do you really keep secrets?
ganun?huh inulit mo lang

29. baket defensive kayo madalas.
mas defensive mga lalake

30. ano ibig sabihin ng "di masyado"
(honestanswers pls.)oo!! Sobra!!

31. eh, "ewan ko sa yo?"
edi ewan ko sayo

32. "bahala ka"
galit ako. Gawin mo gusto mong gawin basta akogalit. Pag “ikaw ang bahala” mejo positive angdating nun :)

33. "k" lang
hindi mashadong ok

34. "huwag mo ko kausapin" -hanggang kelanhindi pede???
hanggang sa dulo ng wlang hanggan. Haha. Joke.Ako after two minutes lang haha

35. "wala lang"
wala lang

36. basta
ayoko sabihin

suicide is nothing but the side of SUI...(re-stated)

2006-06-13T11:24:00.000+08:00

a taste of my past. well i just found this entry on my blog dated a year ago. it seems kinda cute hehehe...

remember the first phrase you told me...

when there is only the two of us together...

for the first time...

(well in reality there we are not alone... there is some guy in red "an old guy" and two mischievous juvenille brats... but in my brain i like to think of it as were alone...)

well probabbly you won't remember...

it's not that important to you anyway now...

i could still vividly remember that instance...

were alone together walking side by side...

(actually we were dragging the juvenille brats... still with the old guy behind us...)

you didn't said "hello" or "hi"...

i was heavily breathing by then...

i don't know why...

then you...

uttered...

"what's up for you"

.........

darn it...

i don't fucking care...

because i'm in love...

It Sucks...

2006-06-12T22:36:00.000+08:00

sa inyo.

tagal ng pinag-samahan
wag na wag kakalimutan
kahit hindi palaging makasama
tandaan nyong ako'y narito pa

sa tabi-tabi..

2006-05-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

ASA
by gab caraon

pumikit.
umasang sa pagdilat ay mawala siya.

matulog.
at umasang sa pag-gising ay mawala ang panaginip.

umiyak.
umasang sa pagtulo ng luha'y sumabay na mawala ang nararamdaman.

punasan mo na yan.
sino bang niloko mo?

tanga tayong lahat sa pag-ibig...

PARA NAMAN MAY BAGONG POST KAHIT PAPAANO

2006-05-25T15:25:00.000+08:00

I found this article at the net while I was looking for the definition of the word, Philophilia. Apparently, there is no such word, the word I should be looking for is Philophil, meaning love for love's sake. The word cannot be found in the English dictionary yet, but the word is included in a Lexicon of Neologisms in Emory University. Anyway back to the article…

Philophilia Among the Not-Yet Set

"Love is...,” said the Sexpert, crouched in a corner of the booth in a fractional lotus. It tended to hide her surpluses, which was well, but it couldn't hide her garb; her skin wasn't right for black 'tards and turtleneck, so she counter-weighed with hefty black glasses. "Love is..."
Proudly Suffering mused lovingly, "Love is pain... Exquisite pain..." He brushed at his thinning black hair and made beagle eyes at the blonde woman across the table. He pulled the lapels of his velveteen jacket into place. He groomed his thin moustache. Do I read minds?; as I
watched him in the mirror, I knew his thoughts: 'worth a shot', or maybe 'because it's there'.
"Eavesdropper," the bartender said to me. It wasn't a question, and he proved it with a knowing grin. "Give me a warm-up," I said, tapping the half-full beer glass in front of me. "Charge full price to make it worth your while. It'll make it look like I have a reason for staying here." The blonde woman gushed, "Love is =everything!" One would say she was elegantly endowed, quite well favored by nature, if it were possible to judge by measuring only those organs from the eyebrows down. As it was, well... More Proudly Suffering's type than mine. "Love is =all there is!" "Well, what about sex?!," the Sexpert countered belligerently. "Without sex there is no expression for Love. Without sex Love can't exist!" "Yeah," said Suffering, "and what about walks along the beach and listening to music and great books?" "And cuddling," said the Sexpert. "And even the grinding process of mutual self-sacrifice." Suffering said: "Nonsmoker preferred. Matrimonially inclined. No fetishists." "Hey...," said Elegantly Endowed. "I think I read that in the Voice." "Yeah," sighed Suffering. "That was my ad... Didn't pull." Another sigh. Sexpert: "You didn't say anything about cuddling. Or merging into a oneness." "You didn't even say anything about Love!," Endowed chided. Sigh. "I'll never get it right..." "Aww...," soothed the blonde. "Love always finds a way..." Suffering whimpered, "...not for me." "Aww... Haven't you found Love yet?" She stroked gently at his temples. He looked at her with mercenary eyes. "Uh... Not yet."
"Poor baby... Love is all there is..."
"Sex is better any day," mused the Sexpert. "The final statement of the dialectic! Being and not-being. Sacrificing and being sacrificed-to! Power, pain, pity. What could be more wonderful?" "...frankly," Endowed muttered, "a lot of things..." "I'm whole when I'm with someone," Sexpert rhapsodized. "I'm whole because I can lose myself in that other person." ...something doesn't add up," said Endowed. "If so it's because you're still tied down to lackey monogamy. 'Off Limits!'," the Sexpert scoffed. "'Private Property!', 'No Trespassing!'. You have yet to learn that the oneness of not-being can only be secured by giving freely, indiscriminately." "To anyone?" The blonde made a face. Her eyes shot to Proudly Suffering, but she hastily pulled them away.
"To anyone!"
"Even if they don't bathe?"
"Anyone. Any expression of ego blocks access to oneness."
"Yuck."
"Do you see?" The Sexpert smiled smugly. "You're unwilling to quest after true happiness."
"Uh... Have you found Love?"
"Love is an anachronism! I have thrown off the bourgeois chains of Love!"
"Translated," Suffering chuckled, "that means: Not yet." The Sexpert glowered at him.
The blonde threw back her trusses. "Well, I say that Love is all there is. Why, if not for Love, what else is there to live for?" "Sex," cooed the Sexpert. "Pain," the Sufferer moaned. "The exquisite hurt of inevitable parting." "No!," Endowed protested. "You know what I mean!"
Sigh. "...and the pain of the quest..." "Yeah!," said Elegantly Endowed. "...and all the intricate wretchedness in between..." "No! Love is all there is! 'You're nobody 'til somebody Loves
you'! Being Loved is the most important thing there is!" "I Love you, Love," Suffering whined. "Please Love me..." "That's the right attitude to take! Why, if we all Love enough, who knows what we can do? Love is all there is to anything!" "Umm," said Sexpert with a larcenous glint in her eyes. "Have you found Love?" "...well..." The blonde bit her lip. "...not yet, exactly... But I'll
keep trying!" The bartender reared back his head and pointed with his nose, a gesture of contempt. "Haven't you had enough of that yet?" I grinned, resisting temptation. I picked up my bills, leaving the coins. "As a matter of fact... I have." As I walked out into the reddening Skies Elegantly Endowed said, "Even if there were something else, it Wouldn’t be as good as Love. That's why I'm waiting. When I find Love, then I can worry about my life."

Copyright 1985, 1986 by Gregory S. Swann. All Rights Reserved.
Direct inquiries to CIS I.D. 75115,1341.

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Place your comment here para post natin lahat ito. hehehe!

2006-05-04T12:16:00.000+08:00

days of exciting boredom have turned me into a musician wannabe.

i have been doing nothing but eat my lola's halo-halo (which is STILL sweetened bananas desguising themselves as halo-halo with skillful use of sago and gulaman), watch TV till my head hurts, strum dumbly at my guitar, eat some more halo-halo, eat something else, watch over my little cousins, and sleep.

the weekends are a little better. for two consecutive saturdays i've attended two different (obviously) debuts. and from the debuts that i have attended, i have come up with a theory. the two vital neccessities for a successful debut are Lengua (cow's tongue, i guess) and bubbles.

so there, back to me strumming dumbly at the guitar. yes, i have been strumming alright. and i think i have again imagined that i am a songwriter and have composed another song.

nobody is allowed to laugh out loud. :p

Sing Goodnight
lyrics by: ehji
music by: ehji (still, hehe)

i remember the night, it was bright
full of stars
and their light, they shimmer
in my face
and my gaze, was in haze
i've been crying
and my hands, they were drenched
by my tears
caused by your smile of goodbye

and that night, i was shattered
by a whisper
so soft that it hurts
and my veins, they contain
your lullaby

chorus:
fell me to sleep with your song
wrap your arms around me
like you did before
tell me you love me one last time
then you can sing me your goodbye..
sing goodnight..

i am to blame
for your sorrow, by your pain
i've made a mistake
and i listen to your
lullaby

(repeat chorus)

bridge (or whatever this is called):
put me to sleep
let my heart weep tonight
put me to sleep
and i will never wake up

(chorus ulit)

so there. :p

Pangit na Post

2006-04-29T22:03:00.000+08:00

A-Asan ako?

ang bagal ng oras...

B-Bakit andaming tao?

ano yung pinagka-kaguluhan nila dun?..

C-Chapel sa may amin ito ah? Bakit sila nandito?..

ang tahimik..pero bakit?

D-Doon..titingnan ko..

ano ba yun?...

E-Ewan ko..kinakabahan ako..

ang sama ng pakiramdam ko..

F-F-FUCK! teka!

ako yan ah!

G-Gago! hindi totoo ito!

patay na pala ako!

2006-04-27T11:30:00.000+08:00

NEVER THIS FAR
lyrics by: ehji
music by: ehji (parin)

i was there, i was standing
by the window
in a room filled with people
i don't know
then i saw you, we were strangers
different faces
stringed by fate to share
a lifetime of embraces

chorus:
i can never get this far
i could never see the things
that makes me smile
i will never get this
if it weren't for you
if it weren't for you my
friends i'd never get
this far

looking back to the
day we shared that
special smile
i didn't know how
much we've grown into each
other's life
now we're not strangers
anymore
and we have so much more
in store
and as i sing this song to you
i want you to remember that

(repeat chorus)

as i look you in the eye now
i see images of memories
we've shared, our ups and downs
and as i sing to you this
made up rhyme
i want you to remember
that we are here forever

chorus 2:
i can never get this far
i could never find the things
that are important to me
i will never get this
if it weren't for you
if it weren't for you my
friends i'd never get
this far

yes, that's a song. hindi siya sobrang ganda pero pinagmamalaki
ko siya kasi KAYO ang inspiration ko nung ginagawa ko to. actually, parang grad
song nga sya eh. hehe.
mwah people.

prosti

2006-04-19T22:51:00.000+08:00

naligo, nagkuskos,
nagpabango..
naglagay ng koloreteng kung anu-ano,

nagbihis, yung maganda
yung magara, yung sexy
at yung sopistikada.

at sa sandaling nagtagpo ating mga mata,
sinimulan ko na ang trabaho,

ang trabaho ng isang puta.

tagayakap
taga salo ng halik,
taga punas ng pawis,
taga kurot ng pisngi

parang nanay,
parang ina.
pero pwede ring puta
tama.
isa kong putang ina.

isang putang inang tinatawagan pagkailangan
paiibigin tapos iiwanan.
isang putang inang matapos iwan,
luluhuran at iiyakan.

isang putang lagi mong sinasaktan,
isang putang palagi kang binabalikan,
isang putang ikaw ang kaligayahan.

at sa bawat patak ng metro ng aking serbisyo,
bayad mo'y puro kasinungalingang pangako,
nag-uumapaw na mga pekeng halik,
at huwad na mga yakap.

at sa patuloy na pagpatak ng aking metro,
sa bawat halik, sa bawat yakap
sana unti-unti ko ng nahahalay na maging parte
ng buhay mo,
at hindi bilang isang putang
sayo'y nagtatrabaho...

[gago.]

GATAS

2006-04-19T14:53:00.000+08:00

Sawa na ko!

Sawa na ko sa pag-gagatas
Sa iyong suso na siya kong pinipiga araw at gabi
Sa iyong dede na aking inaakalang tagapag-ligtas

Sa iyong malaking utong na pinipilit kong kilitiin
Para sa kaligayahang ikaw lang ang nakakaranas
Habang ang pagkatao ko naman ang iyong tinatapyas

Sawa na ko sa gatas ng dodo mo
Na siya ring nagbibigay sakin ng buhay
At maaring lalagot din ng hininga ko

Sawa na ko, ayoko na!
Tama na! Tapusin na!
Hindi ko na kaya!
Gusto ko ng gatas!

isang pagbubulay-bulay

2006-04-18T13:15:00.000+08:00

minsan ako'y pumikit at nakita ko ang aking sarili
pula, itim at puti

sa gitna ng malawak na karagatan,
lulan ng bankang lumalangoy ng nag-iisa.

sa aking mata'y kumikislap
ang liwanag ng kahel na araw
na nakasandal sa pisngi ng dalampasigan,

umiiyak dahil
sa panaginip na mawawaksan

sa pagdating ng buwan.

photo by mingu

wOoHoOo!

2006-04-14T12:40:00.000+08:00

weebaa! hehe..